Chrisonomicon

Saturday, April 27, 2002

A particular Zen saying has been on my mind the past few days:

All things flow freely, as the fish swims in the water.

I'm trying to envision myself moving through life with as little friciton as possible, going with the flow, working with what's given to me. The week has flowed quite smoothly, in fact. Getting back on my feet from Monday has been a lot easier than I'd anticipated and now the trip to London looms over me, filling my field of view. Packing for the big move has been put on hold while I pack for the trip and I feel a little anxious, knowing it will be here awaiting my return.

Chris and I spent a few days together this week. In response to TV Turnoff Week, we went to dinner at Sencha and a showing of Annie Get Your Gun on Tuesday that was a riot. Somehow, we also ended up with tickets to I Love You, You're Perfect, Now Change! on Thursday (a fluke of planning, but we weren't complaining). Dinner at Bang! before the show, where one of the gay waiters bought us dessert for "making his night" after he caught me stealing a kiss from Chris across the table. Never knew being gay could be so fun and profitable!

Would it be too early to say I'm in love? It's been almost a month and I'm smitten, for sure. I'm no maven of relationships but I often wonder if I'm falling into my old habit of pushing things too fast. Then again, who's to say what's fast or slow or just the right pace? Here's another example of where I'm working on being a fish in water, allowing all things to flow freely.